I don't like them.

Though, actually, I'm starting to get into it.  I worked on it several hours today, and I think it's starting to shape up.  I have to work on the mental block, though, that four hours's pondering and wrestling ekes out a sentence.  I waste a lot of that time thinking it shouldn't be this hard, then burp something up, and it's awful.  Then I get something that's sort of okay and then I can't make it jive with the rest.  

I keep viewing it like a resume.  Those I'm really good at writing.  I think I just care too much about the job, this time.  I have wanted a lot of jobs, but it didn't feel like my whole soul was on the line, and somehow this does.  It's a ridiculous image, but hard to shake.

Solace comes from order if you're me, so I've broken the thing up into sections.  

Section One: I called it "kissing the agent."  Overstated, but I needed something cute to make it less arghish.  Anyway, this is where I ostensibly say, "I heard about you in X because of Y in reference to Z."  Only prettier and with actual nouns.

Section Two; "Story enticement."  This is supposed to be the logline or the zippy "read my story because I so rock" stuff.  I think I might have this part.  Maybe.  I'm close.

Section Three; Story summary.  This part bites.  I keep stumbling over what to emphasize.  I can tell the plot, which makes it sound lame. The problem is, there's the plot, and then there's the REAL plot.  And then the plot under the plot.  If I could just insert a graph for this part, I'd be fine.

Section Four: Story theme/round off.  The last chance to sell it.  (Yes, I've turned my query letter into a five paragraph essay.  It's how I cope.)

Section five: Closing.  Here I briefly mention my credentials and then say thanks for reading best of luck pleasesignmybook butonlyifyou'recool.

Actually, I think I like the Five Section Plan, but I think I need to finish the synopsis.  The full, big, multipage summary.  And then I need several hours with the whiteboard and virtual cigarettes so I can make sense of it.

Tomorrow.