Yesterday was very much a mixed bag.

There is a version of this behind the curtain which has lots of swearing and weeping and essentially less control than I will ever put on the main version of this or any blog, but the short version is that I wrote like a fiend, and it was actually not very much of it crap, and then I got a rejection from an agent on TWA.  Again.  It was one I didn't have hope for anyway, but it served as a lightning rod for a lot of angst and fear, and I uncovered all sorts of emotions that I didn't like about myself at all, and yet, there they were.  So I have been working through them.  I took steps and signed up for a critique from probably the best and therefore scariest set of people I could find, and I made foray #1 into what I am thinking of as an "honest query."  It was absolutely a disaster, which led to more weeping, but it was work towards moving forward, so, there you go.  I also developed what I am thinking of as My Mad Plan, which is to submit to a publisher--skipping agents entirely--whom I truly adore but whose publishing house probably would not have me, while also still preparing the traditional route.  And, after much thought, I'm going to push myself to keep doing this all through NaNo, and when I get to December, anytime I am actively querying I will make sure I am also very, very actively writing something new that I enjoy.  Because submission, I am learning, will eat your soul, then spit it back out and leer at you as it asks you to do it again.

But, NaNo.

My goal for the day is to reach 22k.  That may be a bit high, which only makes me love it more.  I think I have failed to say that you can follow me here: Navigate on those tabs to see stats, excerpts, and other things.  It does not rotate my writing buddies for some reason and just shows the first few, most of whom are not writing this year, which is a bummer because I want to see everybody's tally climbing higher.  (I also have that link on the sidebar--fairly sure I linked it to my page.)

Today is also, you may have heard THE MOST IMPORTANT ELECTION EVER, and despite all my efforts to be cool, I have my heart set and will be despondent if Obama loses.  I am probably going to have to break several mugs, which means I will need to raid the garage sale stuff or go buy some from Goodwill.  But hopefully it will not come to that.  I am still going to write though.  20k for sure.  22 if I can manage it.

Central Iowa's NaNo, by the way, is KICKING TAIL ON THE REST OF THE STATE for collective word count.  I think even if you combine the rest of them into one region we still rule the school.  I still maintain it has something to do with living in STORY COUNTY, but it is also because we are all so very cool.

And this concludes the update for Day Three.